Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes(Turn and face the strange)Ch-ch-changesPretty soon now you're gonna get a little olderTime may change meBut I cant trace time
I always listen to music when I write, and today I found it appropriate to channel David Bowie with all the changes going on in my life. I will admit that I am guilty of first typing "Shrek soundtrack-changes" into YouTube to find the song. Either way, it has embedded itself into my head and I can't see to stop singing it.
So, lets talk changes...
Growing up you get use to changes in your life, whether they be big or small. The last four years of my life have been filled with big changes; moving, graduating college, getting engaged, buying our first house, getting married, getting new "jobs", and becoming a mom.
Recently I have found myself trying to hang onto the last few days of the schedule in my life that I have grown used to. The end of the school year is quickly approaching, and I don't know if I am ready for all the changes that will accompany it. Not to be over-dramatic, because they are not HUGE changes, but change enough that it leaves me feeling a little unsettled.
Once again, Joe and I are going through the daunting process of trying to find jobs for the next school year. After four years out of college without a contracted teaching job I find myself very used to the uncertainty of what I will do come September. However, this school year there is a big added pressure for both of us to find our career jobs. We have Anthony depending on us. So, that scares the crap out of me. I have to keep reminding myself that things will happen the way they should.. and all will be okay. One day at a time!
This summer is filled with changes-
- For one, I am so happy to be the ESY Special Education teacher this summer! What an awesome opportunity!
-My baby is not going to be a baby for much longer. We are celebrating his ONE year birthday in less than two months. That's just crazy to me, and I get pretty emotional just thinking about it! I am so proud of everything he has done, and how much he has taught those around him. He really is an amazing little boy. His birthday will be such a wonderful day. I think that is the part that gets me emotional- not because I am sad he is getting older, but because I can't believe it has been a year since that crazy emotional day he was born. I can not wait to CELEBRATE his birthday, the way I should have on the day he was born. It has haunted me ever since, and is probably my biggest regret in life- that I did not get a chance to welcome him into this world with happiness, joy, and celebration. That is why his first birthday is such a huge deal to me, it is filled with so, so many emotions. He is going to be the king on that day, and I will spoil him and shower him with love. My sweet sweet boy.
So, to conclude, change is inevitable. But, it isn't always bad. Change has brought me some amazing things in life, and I am so thankful. Although it can be scary, embrace it and enjoy life for what it is: always changing!
I leave you with the many changing faces of Anthony Joseph to brighten your day:
|The "I'm cute but I'm plotting something" face|
|The "innocently adorable" face|
|The "I'm not yelling, I'm just Italian" face|
|The "teething" face|
|The "pondering life" face|
|The "Cracking up- good thing I'm wearing a diaper" face|
|The "Look I'm like Mimi and I can't open my eyes for pictures" face|
|The "serious" face|
|The "tired of Mom taking pictures" face|